I just got back from Seoul last Saturday, and already, I cannot wait to go back (in October)! The next time I will be going with two of my younger sisters, Katie and Jadie. I’m excited as hell, almost three weeks in the land of the morning calm!
I can hear my lola going, “Try another country~” Haha ^^
Now in between, what should I do? I’m determined to veer away from local fandom culture, and focus on looking for work. I am not entirely sure when I’ll be leaving. My family’s moving places, and Mom and Dad are quite busy fixing stuff. So until everything is settled, I can’t go.
LA? NY? Those are my two options. I was so set on going to New York — I have never been there, and it’s always been on my list of places to go to. But right now I am not quite ready for a huuuuge change. A mix of change and familiarity would be just what I need, in short, Los Angeles. :))) I’m prolly going to miss SMTown though, but I could care less at this point. Haha. (Okay also because there are no more floor/pool tickets, so what’s the point of watching if I’ll only be able to see HoMin in dots, right; )
For now, fixing myself, fixing my life, my priorities. I can do thissss!
I’m excited. I can’t wait to leave and travel and then come back and then travel again. Haha~ (And maybe after a bit of that, I will study again. It’s never too late to go back to school~)
Countless pieces of myself… I have been scattering them on different journals. I wish I could keep just one, and write everything there, but then for some reason, I don’t feel comfortable.
More private thoughts, I leave on my Livejournal. The lighter ones, are posted on candy-sky.com. And thoughts which I come in between, I post here, and everywhere else — my Minihompy or Naver. Long gone were the days when I kept everything in one place, and didn’t give a single care as to whom its accessible to.
It is getting burdensome. Why can’t I stick to just one, and not be bothered? Why does it bother me anyway?
My own horcruxes.
But already I can feel a part of the pain we will be going through in months to come.
In my head, this is for the boys, for the boys, for the boys, and those amazing and wonderful people who’ve been patiently waiting.
One day, I would like to be able to stand with everyone, watching the people we love most. It’s going to entail a lot of hardwork, a lot of resources, a lot of time. It’s going to cost so much financially, emotionally… But I know in my heart everything will be worth it.
One of the lines from the lyrics of Whatever They Say by TVXQ.
I will live by this until the very end, supporting all five members. FIVE MEMBERS.
Cassiopeia was made for those five members. No matter where they are, they will always be those five stars that make up that constellation, Cassiopeia. Remember this, always.